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<3 last year was so fun!


This year, if you find yourself in Calgary on March 20th or Edmonton on March 27th...come to Demonika's Symphony of Horrors 5! I'm super excited to be performing a haunted burlesque with Vane vane-glory.deviantart.com/ and other lovely ladies!

Now to find time to get healthy, exercise and still do all that studying I need complete before the week ends. Ta ta!

I'm finding myself to be in love with the lack of time that I have presented myself with.

Not exactly sure why.

I hope that I will be able to dance through all of this and come out on the other side at a multitude of new levels.

Though at the moment, there is the feeling that when everything piles up, the response is to fall back and...do nothing.
We must pick up from the start and go bit by bit. Stop feeding the hunger and start using the fuel.

Starting now would be a good idea.

Maybe then sleep will come.

Disintegrate and use the pieces to build up a stronger self.
Fitter, happier, more productive.
These are the goals.
With your feet in the air and your head on the ground
Try this trick and spin it, yeah.
Upside down is right side up in dreamland.  
Keep balanced. Stay green as well as gold.
Give yourself a hug. Its a good break.

there is a boy in a band
who is friends with my ex-boyfriend's
high school friend
christian
a very nice gentleman

he seems to know me
but i can't remember him
good god forgive me
i'm out of my element

and i can't seem to keep them all straight
i've forgotten which people i like
and which people i hate
and i'm waiting for someone to shake me and say
hey bitch
your wish is my command
just smile and nod
we'll under-
standing in front of the sink
i believe i've been tricked
into thinking i'm sick
when i'm actually generous

no use expecting the worst
let the thing run its course
and in time you'll look back
thinking god, how hilarious

but i can't seem to keep them all straight
i've forgotten which ones i should skip and which ones
i should take
and i'm waiting for someone to shake me and say
hey bitch
don't quit
you're almost dead
don't give up now
make friends instead
of going out
go home instead
of going down
go back to bed

there is a man at my side
who's convinced i'm alive
and i try to explain
the poor guy
that it's way too late

he seems to like me
but i can't relate
i would like to get closer
but christ all the time it takes

and i can't seem to keep this all straight
i've forgotten which feelings to show
and which feelings to fake
and i'm waiting for someone to shake me and say
hey bitch
nice tits
you're broke but then
you're rich in love
you're great in bed
you'll see the world
you'll knock 'em dead
and all the thick books that you've read
will count for nothing in the end


I'm not going to stop. I'm in love with the air and the water and the feeling and the day and the night and that buzzing in your head when you know everything's lined up right. Here comes the war, but I'm ready to fight for what makes my soul. I should probably sleep more, but there's never enough time. what little time there is will bring dreams of untold longing and beauty divine.
Evolve. Push it. Leave behind. Break. Form. Die. Rebirth.
Grow and never stop. This energy won't eve pause for the hesitant so grab a hold and fly along with the ride, because its not everyday you're given the chance to breathe this deep.

Not me! Well...not yet.

I turn 21 in T-minus 2 hours and about 2 minutes. Woot! Pan Galatic Gargle Blasters all around!



In other news: Performing in a Willy Wonka show in August. I plan to be ridiculous. Hopefully photo evidence will become available! *needs to costume and perform* A wonderful friend is remixing a song for me to perform to! This is so much more exciting than studying MCAT material...though organic chem can be fun if you pretend it will help you make illegal compounds.

And...
I am going to Burning Man. I am so stoked it is not even funny. *must renew passport asap*